“ Hate yourself more to love it even more “
Sometimes I look in the mirror
And I want to strangle the girl in the reflection for being so hideous and unlovable, I want to insult her until she becomes nothing, then I remember that she’s just a girl trying her best, I remember I’m just a girl trying my best
ANTAGONISM (SELF HATRED)
I know many people have been struggling with their discomforts and feelings, there are many examples wherein it’s so called self — isolation like : poor self esteem, inability to accept praise, negative inner critic, self frustration, mental disorder, isolating, splitting, toxic, neglecting your mental/emotional and physical health, jealousy, self harm is that synthetic SELF HATRED.
Psychologically, it says that you’re not okay as a person. That antagonism you are feeling it’s in you, but it doesn’t mean it’s you because there are many options when it comes to something that’s obviously not strange at all that’s not you, love. Maybe you’re feeling that’s wrong, no it’s not they just set the standards so high that you can’t even reach that point. I think you’re just unique, my love. Your feelings are valid it’s okay to feel that way, but trying to be better for someone else, do it for yourself. Love yourself before you love others for what they are because it’s self-harm.
I hate myself more than anyone else. Does it seem too much to hate me that much? Hate four letter words just like the word love. Hate is such a big word to say, but it’s easier to mean and say. Hatred Antagonism Threatened Envy (HATE) to hate myself is not a crime, but why do I keep myself in prison to this possession to other people who are not like me. Hatred is not feeling well and not worth life living well, to hate is to love. Being hated for being yourself is not that hard, but being loved for being yourself is truly hard hate me, hate myself, hate you, hate everything about me but it’s not anything like you, love you, love me, love others, love everyone, love everything about other people that’s nothing like me but how can I love others if I can’t do it myself at first.
I love to hate myself. Embracing my imperfections every day makes me stronger than ever, even after I hate myself more often I guess I’m just letting myself feel loved by the way I try to make me hate that version of me, because it’s obviously making me pointless to that part that , I can notice everything what everyone had but I’m trying to figure out why I did that, I can’t change for people’s standards I need to change for myself to be wholesome. Hated myself for existing and questioning what’s missing in me when I can just accept the fact that I’m rare and unique like anyone else, just like my own existence as someone else standard in this life time.
Look at yourself first. It hurts right to hate your own self and liking someone else imperfections. Hating yourself is something else that you can embrace. You can if others doesn’t want to, other people does somethings you love, they hate, and hate turns into likes if no one else does always, remember you will always have yourself first before you know everyone else you’re jealous of.
